Forcing myself to be where I'm not

Afraid I'm not going to get there

Leaves me feeling full of shame.

The critic communicates to myself

not only that where I am at now is wrong,

but that who I am is wrong

And that I am not safe.

Because now is my true nature

and trusting the process

is the vehicle from which a fulfilled life flows.

Though at one time life was running and sticky and not flowing .

I had to force myself to exist where I could not be. 

 So the critic learned then that now was suffering.

Thank you critic.  

I needed a way out. 

I needed protection.  

We are okay now.